My grandparents have always been a huge part of my life and I cherish all of my memories with them, but one memory has been in the forefront of my mind since my grandfather’s passing. Starting from a very young age, my grandparents would tell me, “You’re going to be the first woman president.” They repeated this and similar sentiments throughout my childhood, adolescence and teenage years. Beginning very early on, I never felt like there were any limits to what I could accomplish in my life as a woman, a Jew, an athlete, and any other role I had yet to take on.
As I grew up, I lost sight of that feeling that I could accomplish anything I wanted. I started to doubt myself. I wasn’t focused on what I was capable of, instead I focused on where I was lacking as compared to other people. This long forgotten, now resurfaced memory has reminded me that I have a lot to offer this world despite anything I might perceive as a weakness.
I was walking to my car to formally mourn the loss of my grandfather for the last time when this memory struck me. The next day, I revisited that thought and realized that if it was what I wanted to do, I could be the first female president. I could be anything I set my mind to and I used to be so sure of that. I’m still that person - I’m older, more experienced, more patient (not that much more), kinder, more thoughtful and heavier, but still me.
If I can accomplish anything, what am I waiting for? I want the fairytale. I want a successful career, a husband, children, pets, a house with a backyard and to be surrounded by the people I love and why can’t I have it? The answer is, I guess I was waiting for this moment. For the realization that I can do anything with the right amount of work and perseverance, I can have it all.
So, I’ve decided that there are things I want more than pizza, wings, French fries, entire wheels of cheese, or a boatload of tacos. I want health, happiness, and success in all areas of my life. I’ve been fighting this battle with my weight for as long as I’ve felt as though I might have limits and if I can do anything, I can do this too, so here we go...I’m back, baby.