I know this is a game of will-power, perseverance and determination but it is one I have not won in a long time. I've been awake for eight hours. Eight hours in and I'm questioning my ability to complete these three days. It's three days. 72 hours and yet I am not sure if I will be able to control myself!
I am disheartened by how far I have fallen. As a child I was always active and successful at anything I tried to do, now I long to be that person again. I want to be the girl who takes on every challenge head-first with no doubt in her mind that she will succeed. I want to crush all of my goals and feel that sense of pride that seems so far away now, not fall short of them and feel disappointed. I want to lose weight so I can be all of the parts of myself that I feel like I've lost. The athlete, the confident, the accomplished, the warrior. I want to thrive.
64 hours and counting.